2lbs gone

Since I have started I was at 274. My today weigh in has me sitting at 270. I lost really 2 lbs this week. I didn't post last week weigh in when I gain back a pound.  It sort of depressed me last week but this week I lost 2 lbs. I have a total of 4 lbs lost. "awesome"

I had walked a mile twice this week. It greatly helps if I exercise. Food was a little off this week but manage to survive it. I say a little off because I was not planning to have that much noodles in my diet. I do not like to have to much refine carbs. Something about them makes me gain weight and feel weak if I eat to much refine carbs.

Today is my Birthday. Lets see how much I will survive today. :o)

I just wish it did not start out getting up this morning with rain. :o(

buh hum bug I know we need it.

Another pound down

I was certainly happy with myself this morning when I weighed myself. I lost one whole pound. I weigh myself every Friday and it has been three weeks now.
I started at 274.0
Dropped to 272.8
this week is 271.8
A total of 2.2lbs off of me.

I am already feeling little difference.

For a while I thought I blew it this week. I only walked this week. I did not work with the weight set. I thought I may have put to much potato casserole on my plate last night.  I had made a cake for my husband and have cut a small slice for me and I am proud it was a small slice. It was just enough to have a social dessert with my husband and just enough sweet satisfaction.  Working with portion control here.

stretching the budget

We over spent on novelties this month.  We came up short buying decent food. You see I think that is unfair. If you have walked through a grocery store and things like Fruits is $5 a bag or 80 cents a pound.  onions running around  at $3.58 for a bag of onions, $2 and something for Romaine lettuce, $3 of tomatoes.

I was suppose to start a garden this year but that is not starting out to well either. The ground needs to be worked with to get nutrients back into it and we are short on money for that right now. Hopefully by next year I have the ground ready to grow , Tomato's, onions, green bell peppers "OMG have you seen the price on green bell peppers at the store?"  By the time you get some extra ingredients like that your budget is pretty much chewed for the rest of the groceries. Right now we budget on about $200 for two and it needs to buy grocery for a month. We usually run short for a week but this month it is going to be different we are running short for two weeks but like I said we over spent on novelties and it cut into the food budget by $50 bucks.

It looks like it may be pinto beans, some kind of meat and corn bread for the rest of the month.

I really need to get a job soon and I have sent dozen of applications out and all I get back in rejection letters. I had wasted a year of my life going to Medical Assisting school just to have 25 of my application rejected and about 2 people giving me their opinion that they would not take anyone that came from the school that I was taught at.
Yea a real "Debbie downer for me" I have gave up this search and decided to start putting my applications in clerical or inventory clerk at warehousing.
This is the only thing that is depressing me is I am not working and my husband is and we are struggling.

I did not do any of my exercises over the weekend. I am going to try to get back on track by late afternoon, after I am done job searching and figuring out dinner.

Weight has melted

I went from 274 to 272.8.. Swwwweeeet!

If I can keep this up I am doing great.

However! I have these ugly hot dogs around I have to be careful with. Good gawd they are high calories. One hot dog 350 calories.

Shopping isn't fair when you need to stretch the budget and this is how these hot dogs got into the basket. ugh.... 

Hump Day.

So far I have done pretty good I think. Monday I took a 1/2 mile walk, yesterday I worked with the weight machine for 25 minutes, today I will be taking a walk using my noom on my smart phone to measure my distance and calories burn. I wish noom would let me post my results to my blog instead of my facebook. Oh well.

Yesterday I had a bowl of cereal. This is getting boring but it is what I have right now until we can go buy some eggs. I kind of miss having eggs for breakfast.

I had a lean pocket for lunch. I did not want anything to big and something fast to cook. I had to keep going.

At super time my husband grilled up some chicken and we decided to have a grilled chicken salad for dinner. Lots of lettuce, romaine lettuce, shredded carrots, cheese in moderation and salad dressing in moderation. It was yummy.

My husband wanted to have his dessert a root beer float. I made his same size glass as usual but for me I took out a smaller glass and could only fit two scoops of ice cream against his 4 or 5 scoops he eat. I am cutting it back.

I am weaning myself off the soda's pretty good. It is just my water with my MiO water enhancers.

I feel pretty good with the choices so far. Hopefully by Friday I have lost "Something"

time for me to go on my walk.

Fingers cross!!!

what is up with your nick name?

I have been trying to upload a profile picture of me but the Internet is being stubborn today. I have taken a picture of me with my camera phone and tried to send it from the camera phone to my GMail. Usually I am successful with this. NOT TODAY!!!
I have sent my picture to myself three times already. So I guess it is the waiting game today. I will see three pictures sent to my GMail sometimes today. 

Tobiano Filly is my nickname I go by on here. I am a horse person. The horse I plan to get in the future is a Paint horse with tobiano pattern.  I favor the tobiano pattern over the overo pattern so it is the description of a pattern I like. I want a black and white or bay and white mare around four or fiveish years old.  I want her young cause I have plans to do things with her and she will be my long time partner. She will also bring me my second horse so breeding is in the plans later. She has to be 15.2 hands tall and it seems like this is becoming a rare average height because every ad I look at horses are 14 hands. I do not recall horses being so short back 28 years ago. It seems I could find plenty around 15 hands and up and it was rare occasion to find a 16h horse unless you wanted a Thoroughbred.

This is also what inspires me a whole lot about losing weight. You have got to be able to move with the horse if you compete in anything and I am at my biggest. I would also like to be quite a bit lighter on my horses back.  I was not this heavy back when I had a horse.

I have put a down payment on my saddle yesterday. I am super excited.

Noom?

I have downloaded Noom to my android phone. I think it is a little awesome app when it comes to tracking your walk. It works off the GPS to track how far you walked. It also has a weight graph so you can record your weight.  After you are done walking you can post your progress onto Facebook which I usually do.  I do not like their logging in the food part of the app. The calorie counting always ends up off either by to much or to little.  You can get this app free which I have their free version. I do not care for their paid version. I have not tried it yet but I do not like the idea of paying for something per monthly when it comes to app's. I prefer to pay a reasonable price for an app and just upgrade per year if I want to. I guess I will stick with the free version. I basically wanted it for the tracking my weight and track my walking on GPS. It measures the distance and the amount of calories you burn.

Food For Thoughts on Sunday

I did not do so bad on Sunday. I still had the whole milk with my cereal Sunday morning. I am not happy with that whole milk. I will be glad to get my own gallon of skim milk. I will feel like I am doing some kind of a change.

I had my water all day long alone with enhancing it with the MiO stuff. "awesome" little squirt bottle, I think I am in love with it.

I did not eat all that much for lunch. I had share a piece of beef jerky with my husband and had a small bowl of left over Shrimp lo-main from Friday.

Dinner consisted a T-Bone steak, small bowl of corn and pinto bean mix, and a side of broccoli. I love broccoli. So I don't think dinner was too bad.

I ended my sweet craving for the night with a Popsicle that you have to come home and freeze yourself and a lollipop which is light in calories. While my husband enjoyed a bowl of bread and syrup. "YUCK". I am so glad with my sweet choice he can have his bowl of bread and syrup.

My whole idea on how I am losing this weight is knowing what my body can burn calorie wise and controling my portions.

Today I am learning about my bad habits.

I am getting to know my bad eating habits today. This is where I learn to do some changes. Lunch/ Dinner going to suck because its pizza day, Why? oh I dunno at the time being it was the cheapest way to feed the mass.  I have two guys working on motorcycles that needs to be fed. I will probably change my habit from today to figure out what I can eat instead.

This morning I had cereal. The cereal it self still did not have to many calories. 120 cal is not so bad but since I met my husband I gave up my skim milk for 5 years drinking his whole milk.  Which again it sucks! It is no wonder I have gain so much weight. If I stuck to my skim milk my cereal this morning would have only been 170 cal not the 310 Cal. So guess what? I am changing my milk.

Since I have met my husband I have gave up my diet soda's when I wanted a soda Insted he convence me that the diet soda were not doing me any good that I should just drink sugar soda anyway and again it is no wonder I gain weight and then some. I use to buy water a lot and I lack in that dept too.

So I am dropping the soda's as being the main source of liquid sweetness.  I have changed back to water and have been adding MiO water enhancer into my water. I am a big fan of Mio right now even Mio energy.

The journey I am still traveling.

I will lose the fat body suit!

Horse N Around Saddle delimas

So here I am searching for a new saddle. The saddle I had for the last 29 years does not fit me well. It is a 15in barrel racing saddle. "What an embarrassment"

I had myself sized and I am told I  need an 18in saddle!



So I have been saddle shopping for a couple days with no luck. I seen saddles I would love to have but they would only go up to 17in.

Voice of reasoning appears "You are to big!" Not even an 18in saddle is all that popular. Even though I do find an 18 inch saddle they are dog ugly! Plain colored and blah.

I wanted to cry. How did I let myself go when I lost all this weight to begin with? I shaped my body out to the point I started to like myself again back 6 years ago I didn't start gaining this weight back until back 2 years ago.  I knew better not to eat like everyone else because I knew my body could not tolerate it. I had to stay on a control food intake my body will not metabolize food like some people.

*GASP*

Their is some sun shine at the end of the tunnel. The saddle I found I like so much, I wrote to the person that made the saddle. I told him I love this saddle color, kind, and everything, but I see the size stopped at 17 and I need an 18. If by any chance if he didn't have an 18 if he could let me know of someone that comes close to the look alike of this saddle. He wrote me back and let me know he makes an 18 inch saddle that it would cost an extra $85 to do so. So maybe I can feel a little happier that I may get the saddle of my dreams.

Horses from my past

I have loved horses since I was a baby. I have been fascinated with the animals since I could say "Hawse".  That is the way I would pronounce it to. "hawse"

My first time sitting on top of a horse was when I was 7 years old Her name was Honey. I did not fit the saddle but I did not care. She operated by the reins to go left, right, stop.  Some how she knew when I wanted her to walk. She took off one time and I fell off. I cried, I was mad, my feelings were hurt, I slapped her on the front quarters and went inside the house. I felt bad all night for being mad. I knew some how it was my fault. Before I left the next day I hugged Honey and said I was sorry before I left. I had got to ride her three more times in my life time before my uncle sold her. I did not get to ride her much. She was on my grandparents farm in west Texas and i lived all the way in Dallas. She made visiting with the grandparents pleasant. I had always looked forward seeing her.

Still Wanted my own horse!!!!

As I got older through the years as a kid. My mom ( best mom ever! God bless her heart I wish she was not gone) purchased a dude ranch membership so we could go horse back riding. It made my year. I was 9 years old. We went a couple times on the weekend riding horses. By the time the next year rolled around the dude ranch was closing. No more horse back riding. I was depressed.

I still wanted my own horse.

I would sit down thumbing through the Sundays paper looking at horse prices.  My dad hated horses. He considered them "creatures of nuisance" told me I could not have a horse we did not have no property to put a horse on.  My solution then go buy some property. Nothing became of it. I still was going to find a way I was going to have a horse. Mom would time to time go visit her sister on the other side of Dallas and as a child I would always travel with her. I looked out my window one day and seen a big piece of land, with stables running down the property, and a BIG SIGN that said STABLES FOR RENT!

Uh OH!!! Was that my answer? Oh yes it was.... I'm back on the horse hunt begging my parents again I wanted a horse. I can stable it.

Bet this was my dads nightmare. I don't think he thought I was smart enough to figure this one out.

I went to the best person in the world to beg for my horse.

MOM!!!!!!!

I found a young grey 3 year old Arabian for sale for $500.  I begged my mom, told her about the stables on the way to aunts house,  The stables were checked on price wise, and off to see the grey 3 year old Arabian. It was saddle and hackamore, I test ride her and came back and I wanted her ( secretly she felt spooky but I didn't care. I wanted her if I didn't jump on her now I probably will never get a horse, beg, beg, beg,) Yep I got her.

She was young and spirited and had a quite a few of bad habits. Some of it scared me but I still didn't give up on her.  All and all we went through the good and bad together. I kept that horse for 17 years. I was 10 years old when she became mine. I didn't end up losing her until I was 27 that is when my mom died and I could not cope with anything in life at that point. My dad took the opportunity to sell both of my horses at a time that I was not all there. I am sure he was quite happy to see them gone. 

The horses didn't stay in stables forever. I moved my horse four times in my life time. She was 15 miles away in the first stable that lasted about a year and I moved her to my town that I lived in at a stable. Both stables were in my town.

Parents purchase some land when I was 14 and the horses moved to the land  one hour away when I was 17 and that is where they stayed. I visit on the weekends being around them and they fed off the land. from 17 to 27 that is where they stayed. Mom became sick when I was 26 to a little past my birthday in May when I turn 27 then died in Augest battling cancer. When mom died I fell out of touch with the world for about a year.  Dad took advantage didn't feel obligated to help me with the horses and went and sold off the horses and horse trailer.  I was not happy at all!!! I went and hid my saddle or thought I did, figure he would be after that next since he was so interested in erasing that part of my life out. 

I knew someday I would come back to having horses. I had predicted that it would take me 10 years to go back and that is just what is happening.

I am preparing to go back to own my horses again and it is going to make my dad "SHIT" and I Don't Care!

unmotorvated

I have no motivation today. The feeling sucks! I mean today is "Friday!" and this is the day that everybody is excited about.  Except me!

I feel tired!
I feel BLOATED!
I feel completely "BLAH"

I really  hate this feeling.

I had a bowl of cereal today. It was not very nutritional. Just something to get me by.  It is really a kiddo cereal. I only purchased it because it was Cheap!!! It fit the bill.  I much rather have my Special K.

ACTUALLY that is the biggest part of my problem right now. We have to live on a budget and the budget to get it to stretch you are stuck buying some unhealthy stuff.

Right now I am trying to cut down the ground beef we buy. I am trying to replace ground beef with some steaks because there is no way my husband is going to live WITHOUT beef.

Today we are having lots of veggies with shrimp mixed into it. So it should not be such a bad day for dinner. My  lunch will consist of a ham / salami sandwich.

 I had exercise with the weight machine yesterday. I think I will go for a walk today.

All about me Hair Dying history

My hair was once light brown but I think most of it has turn grey. I started coloring my hair when I was in the 8th grade. I had decided to be blonde in the 8th grade. Going with the fact blondes have more fun. I did this blonde thing from 8th grade until I was 25 years old. I knew my roots were getting light back then. I thought maybe doing blonde so long maybe I was turning blonde. " HA! that was not so the case!" I started to color my hair back to brown thinking I was getting back to my real color. At first I seen light brown strands and grey. Lot more grey then I want to see. I so wanted to say that shiney grey was really a blonde but it was not!  (I do not know when but some where between here and there I do not know when I turn grey) How horrible, turning grey at an early age. I just knew my roots were getting lighter, then someone had to say something about it. "YOU ARE GREY!" Anyway. I just do not know when this had happen.

So from 25 yrs old to my  early 30s I was coloring my hair light brown.  I met my husband when I was 34 and he thought I should be a red head. I at the time was not fond of the idea. My dad for years preach against red heads. Red headed people were deem funny, who would want to be with a red head? who would want to have a red head child? I had a cousin who married a red headed man and my dad ( GOOD GAWD what an embarrassment )  Had loudly said in front of the family to my cousin. Why in the world would you want to marry a red headed man. Don't you know if you have kids with him they are going to be "red headed" ( WOW at this point in time I could only wish I was not related to my dad) My cousin shrug his comment off.

Anyway, so now I went from brown hair to a dark red head, I am taking it a step up to medium red. 

TAKE THAT DADDYO! I think the red hair color is kind of cool.

Well here I am at it again. I have been on this weight loss journey once before back 7 years ago. I even blogged about it and had a hell of a support group. I lost 80LBs back then. Looked great felt good. It took 2 years to drop it. I spent enjoying my new found body then I met my husband. I kept the weight off another year and after we were married I gain a lot of it back and then some. Yea depressing.

I am at a whopping 274.3Lbs. and I am not proud of it. Actually last 2 months ago I lost about 8Lbs and stalled.

Previously, When I was 258 and lost all the way back to 172 my problems with weight gain back then was the fact I ate out of comfort. Food was my comfort. I ate breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacked and graze like a horse all day.

I have a whole new game now because I don't graze anymore. I had train my self out of grazing from my first success of losing. My problem now is I put too much food on my plate and I need to learn to cut back. My husband OMG! is a really good cook. He knows how to season food to make it complete mouth watering. "it's a curse I tell ya"

I have to sit down and look for a new game plan because now I have a husband that is part of my life. I can not do the type control issue like I use to with food because I am someone that loves vegetable. I could eat vegetable for my lunch or dinner and be happy with it. I can veg out on Brussels sprouts and broccoli almost every day on my plate. However my HUSBAND CAN'T and there must be meat on the plate at all times. Not chicken either. It must be BEEF!!! ( MOOooooo)

Husband must have Ice cream and cakes around here all the time. I am slowly but surely winging myself off those. I am trying to find other sweets that I can deal with while he eat his high calorie food. ( That ornery bastard can eat it and he will not collect any weight on his body) I only wish I could have a high metabolism like he does. I have purchased me some freeze pops to be my dessert

I will be working on how to control portions this week and start doing exercises, like working on my weight lifting set and walking. I do like walking.